BHAG

I am 26... that is my age. Eight years ago I sat in the Vines Center at Liberty University listening to Jerry Falwell preach about finding your BHAG (big hairy audacious goal). The whole message talking about people who did all these wonderful things, including his own story about establishing the TRBC church and the university, which is pretty amazing to say the least. But it was overwhelming as an 18 year old freshman. I wanted to be the person who knew what they wanted out of life, knowing that they wanted to be a doctor, be a missionary, know exactly what God called me to do. Truth is, I didn't. And here I sit, years later thinking... do I still not know what exactly my BHAG is? Will I ever have a BHAG. I have a lot of goals though, like I know I want a family. I married the love of my life and am so happy. Actually, we'll be celebrating our 1 year next week!! So, I suppose I knew that. I know I want children. Sometime soon before I hit the thirties and it's harder to lose the baby weight, so I hear. I did just get a job with full benefits so that helps the process. I want a dog. I look forward to becoming a part of a church and helping people inside and outside of it. I guess, I can't pick just one big BHAG. Maybe a BHAG is an opportunity that comes along and you have to say yes in faith. I seem to take little steps at a time versus having big dreams and going after it. Mostly because I've seen people have these big dreams and then they don't work out. I hope I'm not afraid of failure... sure I am a little, who isn't. But I suppose some people have more ambition, or some people feel a grand call to do something. I suppose I never really felt that. I'm just going through life step by step. Is that right though? Should I step out of my comfort zone more to find my BHAG? I guess right now I feel content on being a wife, loving and being loved by my new husband, and working to eventually establish a career. Not to be confused with selfishness, it's just how I feel. It's my phase in life. And I think I'll keep watching for a BHAG in case it comes along and I feel that it's for me.